I was really upset to find out last friday that my dog was sent to SPCA. I have no idea if you know how i felt but it had lived with me for 13 years. I was astounded by the absence of my dog when i reached home. It never fails to show its excitment when it knows i'm reaching home. I didn't had a chance to send it off even if i am obligated to let it go. I witheld my tears and pain at the sight of my family but in my heart the pain is excruciating. The detech was something i never want to imagine but it happened at a moment i never witness it.

It was decided to send off due to the presence of babies but honestly i adore my dog more than these toddlers. I would'nt blame them for doing so because no one would bear to. I really feel like tearing when i think of it but i can't help it to tear at my work place , even now , it hurts.

I took much initiative to drag my feet down to SPCA (It's isolated that it is so hard to travel to). Just wanted to see it , adore it like i always do and miss it for the last time but they would'nt let me do so. I pleaded them but they explained its their property now (F*** off!) and they do not have the practice the allow ex-owners to do this(of course what makes me so special that i can). I almost blew my top off at the 2 tamil receptionists but i withdrew and moved off. I almost teared again but i did'nt.

SPCA was meant to reduce animal cruelty but their purpose for isolating or in their term quarantine is to make these animal forget about its past (Ex owner etc). Reduce animal CRUELTY? YA OF COURSE! MY A*S!

So my effort , wishes and hopes did'nt turn out to have a conclusion as what it was supposed to be. So i left with bundle of disappointments.Well , i guessed it was meant well my dog (CANDY) afterall. The destined was well planned by annonymous.

But all i want to is to see it for the last time before it was put to sleep. Feeling really down , my soul is completely absent in almost everything i do.

I would like to thank BEN (my courts friend) whom actually sacrifices his rest to accompany me and coax me. Its really nice and sweet of him. For my friends whom coax me and offer a thought for my dog , i thank your on its behalf. I prayed it would go somewhere better.